Every Christmas and Easter, I receive a few messages that begin with this line...
'Wishing you AND YOUR FAMILY a wonderful Christmas / Easter.'
Looks like a very normal harmless message, doesn't it?...But what may seem extremely ordinary and regular to most people, 'rips my heart out' every single time.😢
Not just because it clearly indicates that it is a 'Blindly Forwarded' message, with no personal feelings attached; but also because, it shows an absolute 'Lack of Sensitivity', on the part of the people, who send messages like these.
Sadly, in most cases, these 'extremely heartbreaking insensitive messages', come from close friends; and often, from extended family too.🤷
And each time, these messages make me 'wonder about and ponder on' so many things.
Why do people send wishes on days like these at all, if they are not even going to first, 'Read the Text' that they are sending across?
How can someone who is close enough to be your friend or even a relative, not even 'Think' how a text like that, would make the other person 'Feel'?
How meaningless and pointless it is, to actually send a wish like that across to someone, if all it is going to do, is deeply 'Wound' and 'Hurt' that person, especially on days, when they truly miss the ones they love, most of all.😒
But, 'That's Life' in today's world, I guess. A 'Disconnected World', in which people want to feel 'Connected', to just about everyone in the universe.
...and how do they do that? By sending 'Seemingly Personal', but actually 'Absolutely Impersonal' messages, to everyone on their 'Contact List', on occasions like these; often without even bothering to 'Stop' for a minute and 'Think' about, how generalised messages like these, could make a few 'SORE LOSERS' like me, feel.✍️
'What would life be, without a song or dance', sang ABBA, a long, long time ago.
...But also, what would life be, without a little bit of this sometimes:
- a cheerful smile
- an amused giggle
- a quiet chuckle
- a hearty laugh
- a roaring guffaw
The happiest sound in the world, is probably the sound of a really loud, resounding Laugh.😂
The most uplifting feeling you could ever experience, is looking at a face, when it breaks into the warmest Smile.😊
I don't think any of us can resist 'Smiling' or 'Laughing' too, when someone around us Smiles or Laughs heartily. It's no wonder really then, that 'Laughter Therapy' and 'Laughter Clubs' are so popular everywhere, even though it may seem quite silly, to just get together and laugh.
I guess, sometimes in life, we just forget how to Laugh, or we have fewer reasons to Smile.
...To people in our lives, who remind us to Smile and Laugh everyday, 'Thank You'.✨️❤️
(Wrote this on FB, on this day last year, 26th March '2023.
Discovered this song, a year or two ago also. It just matches my post today. So, sharing it.)😊
So often, there are thoughts and feelings floating around in our heads and hearts, which we just don't know how to express, or how to put into words.
Our inability to move beyond those recurring thoughts and unexpressed emotions, often makes us get stuck in a never-ending spiral or a circular loop...and we end up just going round and round and round, constantly re-playing the same thoughts, words and actions, over and over again.
The resulting restlessness in our minds, often holds us captive. It keeps us spinning around like a top, as if we were stuck on a giant-wheel or a carousel, that just goes round and round in circles, endlessly.
Thinking out of the box and doing things differently, could be ways in which we sometimes may attempt, to try and escape from these prison cells, that often refuse to set us free...But a lot of times, we're so caught up in their clutches and they have such a tight and firm grip over us, that it is next to impossible, to completely free ourselves from these 'windmills in our minds', and to find a way out of 'the circle game' of Life and Time. ✍️
When words fail, music comes to the rescue. I think there is always a song, to say anything that we can't really do justice to, with words. But, the fact that someone, somewhere, at some point in time, put down lyrics like these; just goes to show, how universal some of these thoughts and feelings are, among human beings everywhere.
I think this song almost echoes my very random thoughts today. It has been sung by many, many different singers. The lyrics are just as haunting as the melody of the song. Together, they almost give you that feeling of being caught up in a never ending circle, from where there is no escape. Am sharing the Alison Moyet version.
THE WINDMILLS OF YOUR MIND (Song Lyrics) 🎶
Round like a circle in a spiral, like a wheel within a wheel
Never ending or beginning on an ever spinning reel
Like a snowball down a mountain, or a carnival balloon
Like a carousel that's turning running rings around the moon
Like a clock whose hands are sweeping past the minutes of its face
And the world is like an apple whirling silently in space
Like the circles that you find in the windmills of your mind!
Like a tunnel that you follow to a tunnel of its own
Down a hollow to a cavern where the sun has never shone
Like a door that keeps revolving in a half forgotten dream
Or the ripples from a pebble someone tosses in a stream
Like a clock whose hands are sweeping past the minutes of its face
And the world is like an apple whirling silently in space
Like the circles that you find in the windmills of your mind!
Keys that jingle in your pocket, words that jangle in your head
Why did summer go so quickly, was it something that you said?
Lovers walking along a shore and leave their footprints in the sand
Is the sound of distant drumming just the fingers of your hand?
Pictures hanging in a hallway and the fragment of a song
Half remembered names and faces, but to whom do they belong?
When you knew that it was over you were suddenly aware
That the autumn leaves were turning to the color of her hair!
Like a circle in a spiral, like a wheel within a wheel
Never ending or beginning on an ever spinning reel
As the images unwind, like the circles that you find
In the windmills of your mind!🎶
I also found another song today called 'THE CIRCLE GAME' by Joni Mitchell, that also ties in with what this post is about. Although the song narrates a story, the chorus almost talks about the same thought, of kind of being stuck on a circular carousel, that constantly keeps going round, almost like it's set on 'repeat mode', over and over again.
'We're Captive on the Carousel of Time,
And go round and round and round in the Circle Game'.🎶
But when through turbulent waters, we were forced to wade,
'Nothing ever prepares you for that!'
...And stumbling, crawling, we found our way;
Like a little toddler, discovering the magic in his feet.
With Isolation, Separation, Loss, Grief and Pain,
'Everything you knew, just turns on its head!'
...And with the 'Strangely Familiar', often more comfort and solace;
Like a warm blanket, on a cold winter's day.✨️❤️
(When I posted this on FB last year, on the 20th of March' 2023; a friend asked me where the 'Inspiration' for things that I write, comes from.
I answered, 'Everything, Everywhere, All at Once'.😊 That movie title was stuck in my head for a few days, since it had won at the Oscars.😂
A musician friend had also shared a new song, that his wife had released on this day last year; and after listening to the words of the song a couple of times, I just mentioned to him, that 'Inspiration could come from just about anywhere'; the people we meet, places we go to, memories stored away in our minds, music we listen to, things we love, nature and the world around us, everyday experiences, or even just ordinary things, like a board game played at home (in the case of that new song).😊
With me, I think I constantly have a volcano of words and thoughts inside me, forever waiting to burst out and erupt, at the drop of a hat. So, anything really, becomes a 'catalyst', to bring those words to life. Place a keypad or a pen in my hands and I just can't stop myself.✍️
...And, I also think it's a 'Gift from God'. Any talent we are blessed with, is something we always need to be 'Grateful' for.😊
Each time I put my thoughts into words, I'm just practising my skill, experimenting a little bit, with different styles and ways of putting words together...Hopefully, somewhere down the road, it will lead to something more...Poetry, Lyrics for songs, Books, Who knows!🤷♀️
(Wrote this last year on 20th March' 2023. The Movie 'Everything, Everywhere, All at Once' had won the Oscar Awards. I still haven't watched the film; but when I heard the title, I just thought that it was interesting, and so I put down these random few lines.)😊
Like always, there is constantly a soundtrack playing along in the background of my mind, all day, everyday. This morning, it was these words that just suddenly started playing in my head. They're from the animated movie 'Anastasia', that I must have watched a couple of decades ago. I don't even know, how I remember the song still; and how these words just came to me, almost when I was saying these things to myself.✨️
2024 hasn't been the best year for me, so far. Of the two and a half months that have gone by, I've been unwell for almost one whole month now. As a result, have been physically and emotionally, completely drained out. Someone asked me about 15 days ago, 'So, who is looking after you?'...How do you answer a question like that?🤔 I just smiled.😊
To add to that, I have had quite a week, trying to locate something very important. Turned everything upside down, in my quest to discover, what I thought was lost; because it was too important to be misplaced. I guess, that stress and anguish, just aggravated the illness, and brought it back in a new avatar; because although there are environmental and other causes for every sickness, our emotional state of mind, is always a big contributor to how good or not so good we feel, physically.
The great thing though, was that I finally and thankfully, found what I had been looking for high and low, very desperately. In the process, I also got down to at least starting out, on an extremely 'mammoth task', that I had been putting off for the longest time, because it always brings back too many memories, whenever I set out to do it - trying to look through old stuff, to decide what needs to stay and what needs to go. I have been doing a little of it, at a time, over the last 2 years; but moving along at a snail's pace (by choice really), because it is something that is too difficult to do, considering that every little thing, is connected to an unforgettable memory. My quest for what was lost, forced me to speed up the process, just a little bit.
There is so much to do; that it will probably take me a few years or maybe ten, to look through everything and get it all done. But this 'Journey To The Past', is something that I have avoided for too long, and it really needs to begin in earnest, however long or uphill, the struggle may be. Forcibly having to look for a lost treasure, was a start.😊
This song is so meaningful and very beautiful. I'm glad something reminded me of it today. Have shared the lyrics below too, because it is such a heartfelt song.✨️🎶
Found a lovely duet version of the song, sung so harmoniously, by Liz Callaway, who originally sang the song in the animated movie 'Anastasia', together with Christy Altomare, who was part of the original Broadway cast of 'Anastasia-The Musical'.❤️
'Sign Boards' like these, that people often put up, at the entrance of their homes or private property; are not the most welcoming, to friends or anyone visiting a person. They automatically make the outsiders, put their guard up; or occasionally, just make a U-turn and walk away.
No one wants to be in a place, where they are not wanted; or where they are made to feel like intruders. Nobody wants to be chased or bitten by the loyal guard dogs, that are constantly keeping watch; and are ready to pounce on just about anyone, who tries to come in without an invitation.
Different people react differently to 'Man's Best Friend'. Having had an unpleasant experience with stray dogs in the past, which led to the entire long course of injections; I've always preferred to steer clear of them. So, friends and loved ones who own dogs, seldom get visited by me; and if I ever do, it is only after an assurance, that their pet is kept away.
I don't need anyone to tell me more than once. Those unwelcome sign boards are always self-explanatory and a clear indication, that I'm better off knowing some people from afar. They still remain close friends and family; but with a 'Do Not Disturb' sign, outside their doors. No doubt, their pets are extremely dear to them; but to me, I always feel safer interacting with such individuals, from a distance. ✍️
(FB Memories today reminded me of two old posts from Jukebox Jammies. One was a lovely song by Michael Bolton, which I shared on this day last year, called 'A Love So Beautiful'.
The other was this post, which I had shared way back, three years ago on the 14th of March '2021. This was a special moment and so, I have to save this post on this blog, now that I discovered it again.)😊
Congratulations dearest Carlton Braganza on winning an award for being one of the 'Lockdown's Leading Lights' and one of 'India's Covid Heroes'.👏👏👏 The number of people that your singing and music has uplifted, through this very crazy year, is difficult to count.
How many burdens you've lightened and how many troubled minds you've put at ease. Fears, worries, anxiety, stress and so many other negative thoughts and feelings, just magically disappeared, when people listened to you sing.🎶🎤 Your warm smile and hearty laughter just made everyone forget that we were in the midst of a lockdown.😊
Those of us, who've been listening to 'Jukebox Jammies' for almost a year now, know that one of the listeners already proclaimed you the 'Patron Saint of the Pandemic' many months ago.😂 May seem a little extreme, to those who haven't been listening to JJ; but if you have, you'll know why, that is definitely not an exaggeration.
This recognition through an award, only a few days before JJ reaches that milestone, of 'One Year' since the show began, is truly well-deserved.👍
Thank you dear Carlton for being our 'Sunshine' and for 'making us happy, when skies were grey'. The entire 'JJ Family' is very happy and proud of you.✨️
Three very different songs, that I listened to yesterday...They may seem unrelated; but if you look closely, they are somehow connected to one another.
I listened to this Ed Sheeran cover by Boyce Avenue, because he is in the city for a concert. A friend, who just happened to be performing in a place that he visited, shared a 'Photograph' with him, which got everyone quite excited (and made me think of the first song). I mean, I'm not exactly a fan; but even those who buy a ticket for his concert, won't get close enough, to take a pic like that with him on Saturday. For anyone who loves music, meeting a singer whose songs you listen to, especially an International Aritst like that, is quite something. So, it's pretty amazing that she met him.😊
As I continued browsing through other songs, I just thought of the other two, during the course of the day, because they are from the Willie Nelson collection of songs called, 'Picture in a Frame'.
I have listened to these songs before; but today, I just decided to save them here. I like all of them; but I think the words, together with the very sweet melody and harmony of 'Love me like a Song', makes it sound so 'simply beautiful'. Such a melodious duet by Kimmie Rhodes and Willie Nelson.✨️❤️
This is actually something I love doing, almost all the time, any time...It's a hobby, I developed over two decades, because I had to do this regularly, as part of my work. Finding the 'perfect songs' to match a particular theme, is so much fun. I like to think that it's a 'Special Gift', I have been blessed with. I enjoy it too, because in order to find the 'right match for a given topic', you have to listen to the lyrics of lots and lots of songs, very carefully and often repeatedly. In the process of doing that constantly for so long, it kind of became a part of what I now do everyday, even when it's not for work, just because it makes me happy.😊
I even have colleagues that I used to work with, who still text me occasionally, when they need to find just the right songs for something they are working on. Makes me happy to know, that they still think I make 'good choices', when it comes to picking appropriate, meaningful songs. 🎶
(Wrote this on FB, exactly a year ago on this day, 13th March '23.)
I think lots of people are like this...Seizing the day and saying what's really on our mind, just doesn't happen naturally, for a large majority of us.
Give me a pen and paper, or a keyboard to type it all down; and I probably would be able to say quite a bit✍️...But, put me in front of a person, and I'd probably turn into a statue with a frozen tongue.😂
'Jumping To Conclusions', seems to be a favourite pass-time of most people. I don't know if that's a common human trait, in people across the world; or whether it is an absolutely irritating condition, that lots of over-inquisitive and supposedly concerned individuals, in our part of the world, suffer from.
I've had innumerable short encounters and experiences like these, (over the last 5 or 6 years especially) of instances, when people who barely know me, or who just happened to know my parents, or who knew of me because of the work I did; freely offer the most bizarre and completely unnecessary 'suggestions', or worse still, 'advice' that I didn't ask for; after a five-minute brief conversation with me (when they're actually meeting me, after over a decade or two, or maybe even more).
In the entire chat, that doesn't last more than a few minutes, (because I'm not the best conversationalist around anyway), while I only exchange pleasantries, just out of courtesy, because someone smiled and said Hello to me; these eager beavers, somehow manage to ask me a dozen questions (often very personal ones too), without the slightest hesitation, and with the skill of seasoned journalists.🤦♀️
Unfortunately for them, their efforts are quite futile, because they only receive answers in a nod, a forced smile or just monosyllables; because I have no interest at all, in being interviewed by anyone, whether they're acquaintances who happen to know me, friends of my parents, or even my own old friends, who I've suddenly met after a gap of many years.🥴
I know that 'Man is a social animal' and by virtue of that, interacting and conversing with others of the species, is something that comes naturally to all of us. Human interactions are very essential and necessary too, for a person to avoid having an emotional or mental breakdown, due to a lack of communication...But, when it happens in this way, it kind of feels like more of an inquisition, rather than a healthy interaction.
I don't know why this troubles me more now, than it did before. I guess it is because I've chosen to be more private and to keep to myself, a lot more than I did earlier. So, even these very casual, meaningless conversations, seem like an intrusion on my personal space. I know that the ones, who have these million queries, are just doing it out of force of habit, or maybe because they're overly curious, or in some rare cases, because they really do care... But, I still think, people need to have some boundaries and respect another person's need to share only what they wish to, without being asked.
It may seem rather strange that a person who writes all these posts on a blog, and shares so much of stuff, in almost the same way as writing an 'Open Diary' (which potentially, could be read by absolute strangers), has so many hang-ups with two or three minute conversations (with people who are somewhat familiar or maybe even friends). But, I guess most people share only what they want others to know about them, kind of like the 'tip of the iceberg' phenomenon, that I studied about in psychology classes. No one could know more about any person, than that person themselves.
Of course, we all need an outlet somewhere. For someone who struggles with verbal conversations, a place like this, where thoughts become words on a page, is a welcome space to vent. But it doesn't automatically mean, that anyone who reads these posts, knows the real person behind the words. Like Ray Charles sang in his song, 'You think you know me well, but you don't know me.'🎶
I only ever had one 'Sounding Board' in my life. After I lost her, my life just went completely 'Silent' for a couple of years; till I started boring a couple of friends occasionally, with extra-long, never ending texts. But now, since I often feel like I might be intruding and disturbing those 'Listening Ears', because they may be busy with life, work or their own families and other friends; this blog is kind of my way, of saying what's on my mind. Whether anyone reads it or not, doesn't really matter to me; because more than anything, writing these posts is just my way of ensuring that the 'Silence', doesn't make me go completely crazy.😄✍️
A brief comment that I typed out on an old school friend's FB page, after very long; made me think about how, as time goes by, we slowly and gradually drift apart from so many, many friends, who once used to be an important part of our everyday conversations and life experiences.
It made me feel a little sad, to think about how people, who were such an integral part of our world, just a few decades ago; get turned into only a dear old familiar name, whose posts we occasionally follow on social media, or who are part of a long list of names on chat groups...I'm anyway, what you would call, a kind of 'a hermit crab' or 'a silent spectator' on most or all chat groups; hardly ever joining into a conversation, unless it is absolutely necessary.
Strangely, there was a time, when I used to list out 'corresponding' and 'making friends', as some of my 'Hobbies' on those old slam books, that we used to fill up for friends, in our school days. Even before social media made an appearance in our lives, my friends used to say, 'You always keep in touch with everyone'.😊
I guess, 'Letter Writing' used to be one of my favourite things to do, in the times of 'snail mail'; and if you were a close family member or friend, who lived far away, you would receive long hand-written letters from me very frequently📨📬...There were also a couple of school and college friends, with whom I used to literally have hour long conversations, on our old landline phones.☎️
From then to now; when I sometimes don't know what to say to a person, after two sentences.🤷♀️ Only a couple of really close friends, still get to hear me talking more than that; and even that happens, just occasionally these days.
...But I think, I've gradually evolved into a very 'Happy Listener', in most face-to-face conversations. The people or the conversation has to really interest me, for me to actually open my mouth and join in. I guess, I like to think of myself as a 'Friendly Loner', who still has lots of friends; but is happier to not have to communicate verbally, as long as it can be avoided.
One or two 'Unfortunate Ones' though, had been forced to be my 'Listening Ears' for a couple of years (whether they wanted to be or not), because even a 'Good Listener' needs to have her say sometimes and somewhere (even if it's only in writing) Thank You for patiently listening (directly or indirectly), literally every single day, when you did. Was glad to have those ears around, for a while.🤗 You know, 'you still mean the world to me' and I really don't know, what I would ever do without 'Special Friends Like You'.✨️❤️
...and the few other friends and family too, (and close friends of my mum also) who took the time to read my regular extra-long posts, (back when I used to share these often, on FB), were the other unsuspecting victims of my regular 'verbal diarrhoea'.🙈😂 I'm glad you are always around, even from a distance (despite me choosing to be so distant, and almost impossible to communicate with, over the last few years).💕
Anyone who reads this post, will never believe that I don't talk much.😆 I think, it's all this extra wondering, that's making me ponder on how much, 'Time' and our 'Life Experiences' change us. Over the years, as life takes us in different directions, friends we used to be really close to in school, college, the choirs we sang with, friends in youth groups, old neighbours who moved away, and even close colleagues we used to see at work and interact with, every single day, who were almost like family; become people we talk to, only on birthdays, festivals or family occasions, and even that has been reduced to, just a one line chat message, if at all (at least for me).
Our 'Communication Circles' dwindle in size and our 'Inner Circle' also keeps changing as time passes, with new people (who are currently a part of our lives), taking the place of older friends and family...and that also, slowly gets smaller. We still have loads of friends; but we don't communicate with everyone in the same way.
I guess, 'That's Life'...Constantly Evolving! Ever Changing!😊...The old relationships and friendships still matter a lot and will always remain dear; but the ways in which we interact and connect, just 'Change'.✍️
(This is a post I wrote on FB, last year on this day, 9th March '2023. Just updated it a little bit, here and there, before saving it here; because sadly, a lot can change in our interactions with people, in just one year too.)
'Home is where the Heart is'...That's a saying, we've often heard.
There are innumerable songs that speak about 'Home'. From the song we all learned as kids, 'Take me Home, Country Roads', to Michael Buble's 'Home', lots of musicians have written songs about 'wanting to go Home'.🎶
But while that sounds really lovely in a song, in reality, it's never really 'a place' that gives us that warm, nostalgic feeling. Home is really just 'an empty space' without family or loved ones in it, even if it may have all the comforts, that one may desire; because it is 'People' who make any place feel like 'Home'.✨️
I stumbled upon these two beautiful songs today, that talk about what 'HOME' really is, in a completely different and beautiful way...and I couldn't agree more, with the lyrics in both these songs. So, decided to save them here.
The first one is a nice old song by the band 'Smokie'. The words of this song, are so meaningful.✍️
HOME IS ANYWHERE YOU ARE 🎶
- Smokie
The second one is a very recent, new song by Jason Mraz and Ingrid Michaelson, which I also liked very much.
(Found a lyric video and an audio one. So, posting both of them).
After an extremely long 20 day health ordeal, I can finally breathe a sigh of relief today. Still exhausted and drained out from the experience; but thankfully, those 'microscopic offenders' seem to have been wiped out. It will probably take a few more days for the weakness and tiredness to wear off completely; but just the fact that the medicines, did what they were supposed to do, made me smile.😊
Every experience, (even the unpleasant ones) teach us a lesson or two for the future. One thing I learnt, is that sometimes, you can't avoid going to a doctor. In fact, delayed medical intervention, may actually make things worse. Prompt and timely treatment, could have probably lessened the time taken to recover from the illness.
My previous not so good experiences, with prolonged dependence on medicines, have made me rely on more 'natural alternatives', over the last few years. So, I usually put off visiting a doc, for as long as I possibly can. It's true that nature is generally always the better option; but sometimes, there are a few instances, (like this one), when a 'Doctor's Magic Touch' and expertise, is absolutely necessary, and the natural remedies, need to be only used as a supplement, to aid the healing process.
I guess, there are moments, when we have to strike a balance between the two; or when both have to work together, to nurse us back to health.
No doubt, I am grateful for all the additional knowledge I gained about natural remedies, to add to the cartloads of information about the subject, that are already in my memory bank. But I am also immensely thankful for my Doctor and all the other medical health professionals, that I interacted with, over the last twenty days, during the repeated tests.
Over the last 5 years and more, I've tried my best to steer clear of hospitals, clinics and medical testing centres; because I really did have an overdose of them, for almost a decade before that. But, I still remember how much I admired this quality in doctors, nurses and all medical staff, in my own previous hospital experiences, my Dad's final week in hospitals; and then later, right through the 8 and half years of my mum's illness.
That reassuring 'Smile' on their faces, along with those few comforting words; and more than that, their 100% attention to every case, even when they're probably tired, seeing innumerable patients on one day.
I may not be a very strong advocate for prolonged medication, (because I've seen how the consequences can be quite devastating); but I am glad doctors are around, when we absolutely can't do without them.✨️✍️
This tune is absolute Nostalgia for me; because it's the Title Track (that also plays right through) of a movie, that I watched over and over again, repeatedly, with my Grandfather (mum's dad), when I was younger - 'The Magnificent Seven'.😊
Just hearing this orchestra playing this song, brought back so many happy memories, of the countless times, I sat and watched old films with my Papa, both in Bombay and in Goa. He loved these movies and had quite a collection of old video cassettes. A lot of my love for old movies and old songs, I guess I inherited from him.✨️❤️
A quiet, safe haven, preferable when life is a mess,
Far away, from endless questions and eyes that pry;
Perfectly created people, when stuck in an imperfect world,
Solitary Solace, leaves worldly expectations, high and dry.✍️
(Something that came to life, from 'the vacant spaces of the mind'. Wrote this on this day last year, 4th March '23 on FB.
I've never been an overly out-going person, but I've never been unfriendly or a complete loner either. Over the last few years though, I've kind of turned into somewhat of a hermit crab, or a recluse, and by choice. Lots of different reasons for that.
The 'Why' is really difficult to explain to others, because people don't really get it or understand, even though they think they do. I guess, the never- ending 'repetitive' questions, constant suggestions and unwanted opinions of 'concerned' people, just overwhelm me. So, I'd much rather, prefer to stay away from it all and keep to myself, as often as possible.)
Accidents happen all the time, all over the world; but they remain mere headlines, till they happen to someone you love. You can't really predict when or where, an accident may suddenly happen; but when it does, it literally comes like a bolt from the blue, and turns your world upside down. The initial shock and disbelief can never be forgotten...The wondering and questioning, about why things had to happen that way, never stops...The 'If Only's' and 'What if's?' linger on, in our thoughts forever...Yes, an unexpected, unforseen, unimaginable accident, that happens right in your backyard; or in our case, right in front of your home, that takes away the life of a loved one, in the twinkling of an eye, is a memory that lingers on, in our mind's eye, for years after it may have happened, with hi-definition clarity. You remember every moment of the day, every word that was spoken, every unforgettable detail, even if you were only 10 years old back then.
How often, I wish I could rewind the clock and change the course of that one day! How often I wish I had been there at that moment, to ensure that things had happened differently! How much I wonder about what might have been, if that one moment hadn't happened!😢
Sometimes, one freak accident can alter the course of our lives forever. It creates a void that no-one or nothing could ever replace. The precious person may have gone forever, but the memory lingers on, for as long as we live.❤
2nd March' 1990, an unforgettable day.....an unbelievable accident...a life-changing moment. Dearest Nathan, it's 31 years today since that day; but you are still 'Forever Loved' and 'Forever Missed' little brother.🤗💕
(I realised today, thanks to FB Memories, that over the last few years, I have written so many posts on this day, year after year, which I haven't saved on my blog, because I had kind of lost interest in updating this blog, for a few years.
This is a post I wrote 3 years ago, on the 2nd of March' 2021. So, it's 34 years today since I bid farewell to Nathan, and not 31, like the post says.
Although this may be a dormant blog, that I doubt anyone reads anymore; I still want to save some of these posts, that I had originally written on FB, because they mean something to me, and I just want to preserve them.)✨️✍️
A little over ten, back then...How much could she really remember?
Strangely...Every minute, Every word, Every sound.
A day like that, she can never forget,
No matter, the span of time gone by;
When overnight, that little girl suddenly grew up,
With a life-long, plaguing question on her mind, 'WHY'?
That forever unsolved mystery, still lingers,
That deep void in her life, always there;
Her restless, aching, often jealous heart still wishes,
Each time, sibling bonds catch her eye, anywhere.
'One Moment in Time', is all it takes,
For a perfect world, to shatter and fall apart;
But the 'Precious Memories', they continue to live on,
Through invaluable old photographs, so close to the heart.✨️❤️
(2nd March, 1990 - 34 Years Today, of wishing and hoping and longing...If Only, that 'One Moment in Time', had happened differently.😢
I originally wrote this last year on this day...Since I hadn't saved it on this blog though, I just changed the 33 to 34, as I post this here today, exactly a year later.)
